2011

For a few years now the year 2011 has had significance for me that I find hard to explain. It's there in my future circled in red. A great many people are focused on 2012 and whatever changes and evolutions that is going to bring about. I can't see that far ahead and it feels like my time is going to come to an end in 2011.
I once asked a psychic counsellor about the significance of 2011 and he told me that it is one of my 'opt outs'. There are numerous 'opt outs' programmed into our lives where an event will occur that threatens our physical existence. When this happens we can choose to return home or return to our body to continue the journey. 2011 is my big 'opt out' and this time I will choose to go home.

There have already been others and obviously I chose to come back or was perhaps urged to come back and keep going a little longer. The first one was in 2002. Leading up to this I had such an intense feeling of completion and peace and this innate knowledge that I was ready to go home. For several hours I was 'away' but I was surprised and a little dismayed when I woke up. However, I felt different and had an inner strength that had been absent till then. The other odd thing was that many memories were absent, even going back into childhood and if they were there they were like looking at a photograph album belonging to somebody else. There are possibly many medical explanations for this; one being that my mind has blocked out the trauma of the events leading up to that point in time, but why simple childhood events?

About a year after that incident when I was becoming spiritually awakened, I read Doreen Virtue's book Earth Angels which introduced the theory of walk-ins. To try to put it simply one soul agrees to get the body to a certain point in time and to experience all the lessons it needs to in order to fulfil its purpose, but it isn't destined to go the entire journey. That's why I believe I had that feeling of completion that I did, because my soul at knew it had completed its tasks. It's so hard to explain and it probably sounds completely insane. Then, at the time of my incident in 2002 the next relay runner stepped in to run with the baton.
I don't think the subsequent incidents have been the same, but I believe in those hours away I have been allowed to go home for a little while to rest and gather my strength again before continuing on my journey to 2011.

The psychic counsellor described a possible scenario where I would be on a tropical island in a soft top 4 wheel drive when my chance to go home for good would materialise. He did tell me that at the time of this event I would be so in love that I would choose to stay here, but I don't feel that; there is no love strong enough to keep me here. The people I love the most are my family and the choices I have made have taken me far away from them for many months of the year. I believe that I will be able to be closer to them in so many ways once I've returned home.

I don't know what will happen next year. The only things that I wish to be here for before I depart are my father's 70^th birthday and my niece's 10^th birthday. After that I feel like my mission will be complete

My going home will not be an abandoment, however and I know that my experiences here and the lessons I have learned will enable me to work from the other side.